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Endless love...

2009-05-13T22:13:00.000-07:00

i had a lot of discussions last week, which mad me confused and other's too. one of them was about love , life and other issues... but the most important one was about what is love in my eyes.

i think that true love has only one meaning . maybe if u asked different ppl they would answer wz different explanation . but if they all read a sentence which explain what is love, they’ll all agree. it's very easy to know the true love when u see it .but i became too too rare to met this kind of love . 5 years ago i knew a lot of persons who have the same concept about love ,they keep saying, they'll wait forever to meet the true love… and so on. But they all give up, one of them really meet this one who was different but he wasn’t to good in financial means , another one found wt she dreamed wz but she got better chance . third person recognized that it's too hard to hold one wz ur heart , u have to think alot wz ur brain. and soo on.

when we was too young we all had dreams , concepts and believes . we keep thinking that it's the most important thing in our life . But once u forced to have a decision , u have to lose smth and keep the other one . if u'r going to keep ur dreams and believe maybe u'll lose smth very critical in ur life.
u'r gonna to think is it really worth? in most cases the answer will be No. an inner voice would tell u , keep ur believes inside ur heart , u have to take this position , u have to marry the best offer u got , u have to… so and so.

i think u all now got what i'm talking about. it's every day's routine . daily we lose something we really believe wz. one of these believes is Love.

it's not a movi show , or romantic songs . the most special feeling in ur heart. i believe that every person had another one waiting for him/her . only one person. when u saw him ur heart will keep beating faster , it's not the same as first look love.
u'll feel it inside ur heart . whatever dream list u have , this one will be the top on ur dream list , u can lose every thing for him because u truly know that he is the most thing u'd ever want . you'll keep running , improving ur self , go on in ur work , get a great position , plane ur life , keep working to achieve wt u want and u think u'd never give ur dreams up But when u meet him u found suddenly that all ur dreams became just one person.
u have a lot of problems but every thing is ok as long as he's by ur side. when someone ask u about ur dream knight u'll keep saying alot of characistc ,( nice work - nice home -no smoking.... and so on but u'll meet this one who have no thing u dreamed wz , maybe he has alot of problems in his life, a lot of things r missing … and every one keep asking u , why this one u used to had a better chances , he has no.. . but u can't answer , u really don't know wt he had to be the only thing u want in ur life , u can give anything up , lose anything just for him.
wt i'm talking about is not a mistake, nor 13's years old love , it's not a movie’s love .
it's very very special feeling . smth done by ur heart , u can't think in it . did u imagine when u wakeup each day and smile just because he is yours.

whatever u have all the day smth inside will told u ,it's ok u'll see him at the end of this day so everything will be ok. When u feel true love for someone , w would want him to be happy whatever with or without you . maybe he’ll got better life without u so u have to let him go but u can’t forget or go on with ur life . whatever he is yours or not he’ll be in ur heart and u’ll live with that love as if every thing is ok . what others may see as painful life , u’ll see it as u got all wt u want .someone inside ur heart . which is true meaning of love called ( Endless love)

i'm not talking about dream life , and i really know wt kind of problems is in life , i knew that not all problems can be ignored .and I’m not talking about ppl who get married because the meet the suitable one for them , nor those lover who discover after couples of years that they were mistaken . also I’m not talking about ordinary life. It’s the only way to get pure life inside ur self . I’m not crazy and i also know that nobody would understand this words except who already know wt i'm talking about.

when u love someone with this way , u'll truly know he’s advantages and disadvantages . u'll not saw him as great one then get Shock. u really know that he have 1 , 2 , 3 and he miss 1 , 2 , 3,4 ,5 . the funnist thing is that u found ur self love both his advs and disadvs. it's about to believe in him, believe mean that he is the cause of ur life ,u may have alot of problems wz him whatever it is but when u try to think against him , or being upset from him , u'll find urself thinking inside his heart as a part of him . any part of ur body my hurt u sometimes but u'll never be separated and if that happened nothing can substitute it.

If u got this , it’s a heaven-sent . I feel like crazy when someone asked me how u’ll know that he is the one u r looking for . cuz I have very strange answer , mainly I expect that he ‘ll havea lot of problems , difficulties which made every thing seems to be impossible . so if someone looks fine in every thing I became sure that he is not the one whom I looking for . to avoid misunderstanding , I’m not looking for dramatically story
but simply if u have to pay 10 bound to get silver ring , u have to pay 10*1000000 to get a diamond one. This is the rule .

if i hear that someone die for another person , i'll not be surprised . would u replace someone in death or lost ur life for him !!. yes we can lose alot of things , jop , family but to lose ur life it's not the same. i know why someone may die for the one he love or for the thing he believe in. if u have this one in ur life , so u still alive but wt if he died? death is fate- but if u lose this one , every thing should not be ok, u can't go on in ur life and say we'll all die. life had to stop for his sake u'll just keep life because u have to ,but u can't think in any other relation so it's as u r waiting to follow him in death.
yes that what i mean , u have great life with this person so why not to live in pain after him. if u know how ur life would be after him , u would replace him in death. because actually u have no life after he gone.

it's really very hard concept. maybe someone would say , alot of happy married ppl can live wz thier life and kids although they were'nt lover.why to suffer , u can have ordinary life wz alot of other things , jop , kids , family. why to lose alot and to did all that .
how lucky is the person who really see that it dosen't deserve . yes the one who can't think like me is too too lucky more than he can imagine .if you can accept the normal life ,normal love and normal death, you r lucky.

one day i thought that i'll lose this concept wt the time , as long as i'm getting bigger , meeting more ppl , have alot of fine chances ..i'll change this concept , or maybe i'll accept to decide by my mind . but nothing changed , i found myself refused alot of good chances or even refuse if someone loved u . cause i can't persuade myself to love this one who r great in alot of things . it had to come suddenly wzout thinking . my heart should beat alot when i saw him. u can meet alot of wonderful persons, they really have no problem , maybe they'll be great in normal relationship but nobody can work wz my concept. sometimes i'm telling myself try to change ur mind he is a good person but it doesn’t work.

long time a go , i knew a person . he was believe in Guevara , he hate persons who did every thing by ( wasta) and money . he had alot of problems in his life , can't enter the collage alot of times because of such a problem . nobody can imagine wt happend wz him and wt hard time he got . he never give up , finally he got a chance to get the collage he dreamed with, but it was because someone he know . so it's wasta . the reaction was , he refused it . it's the simplest situation he got and the smallest thing he lose. he was like a movi hero and u can mention that by wt he did not wt he say. but he give up at the end . there is alot of ppl who would never think that they may did such a thing.

it's a life , u'll live for once , every thing will be ok at the end , every thing will be the same wz all as we'll all die. but wt make difference is how do u want to spend your life time .

another lesson

2009-02-23T08:31:00.003-08:00

-for someone like me , each day i get a new lesson. bad one. that kind of lessons who mad u older , smarter and more experienced.

experience is a magic word in every thing , except in life . if you have expriance in the life that mean u hurt alot , u face alot , and u did alot of things .that's way u become an experienced one.

as life is a game, so the exprianced game player is the one who play more, not the smart one nor the kindest one. to win means that u became the one who know every thing , i don't like those ppl .

they act like if they were in endless war. they keep thinking bad things about u , or maybe they keep saying bad things about u , but they'll never face u .

Why? just because it's how the game is played .

if u said wt r u thinking in , u can't be the winner. u have to play hide and seek . u have to be smarter . u have to be shifty . at the end u'll be the winner .

how much it costs?

No thing to say, just i wish be the Biggest Loser .

2oday's lesson is : be like sea waves , don't be like smooth land

greaaaaaaaaaaaaaat song ... wake up

2009-02-22T14:29:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0YH-s4jmCU

There's people talking

They talk about me

They know my name

They think they know everything

But they don't know anything

About me

Give me a dance floor

Give me a dj

Play me a record

Forget what they say

Cause I need to go

Need to getaway tonight

I put my makeup on a Saturday night

I try to make it happen

Try to make it all right

I know I make mistakes

I'm living life day to day

It's never really easy but it's ok

Wake Up

On a Saturday night

Could be New York

Maybe Hollywood and Vine

London, Paris maybe Tokyo

There's something going on anywhere I go

Tonight

Yeah, tonight

The city's restless

It's all around me

People in motion

Sick of all the same routines

And they need to go

They need to get away

Tonight

I put my makeup on a Saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok

People all around you

Everywhere that you go

People all around you

They don't really know you

Everybody watching like it's some kind of show

Everybody's watching

They don't really know you now

(They don't really know you)

And forever

Wake Up

(Wake Up Wake Up)

Wake Up Wake Up

(Wake Up Wake Up)

someone watching over me

2009-02-22T14:10:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hCoViK0G43Y

Found myself today

Oh I found myself and ran away

Something pulled me back

The voice of reason I forgot I had

All I know is you're not here to say

What you always used to say

But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light

And it's shining on my destiny

Shining all the time

And I wont be afraid....To follow everywhere it's taking me

All I know is yesterday is gone

And right now I belong

To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say

And it doesn't matter how long it takes

Believe in yourself and you'll fly high

And it only matters how true you are

Be true to yourself and follow your heart

Have you Ever Been In Love...Celine-Dion

2009-02-07T02:20:00.000-08:00

Have you ever been in love....You could touch the moonlight

When your hearts shooting stars .....Youre holding heaven in your arms

Have you ever been so in love

Have you ever walked on air

Ever felt like you were dreamin

When you never thought it could......But it really feels that good

Have you ever been so in love

Have you ever been in love....You could touch the moonlight
When your hearts shooting stars

Youre holding heaven in your arms

Have you ever been in love, have you...

The time I spentWaiting for something that was heaven-sent
When you find it dont let go,I know

Have you ever said a prayer

And found that it was answered

All my hope has been restored

And I am not looking anymore

Have you ever been so in love, have you...

Some place that you are'nt leavin

Somewhere youre gonna stay.....When you finally found the meanin......Have you ever felt this way
The time I spentWaiting for something that was heaven-sent

When you find it, dont let go,I know...

Coz have you ever been so in love, so in love...

You could touch the moonlight

You can even reach the stars.....Doesnt matter near or far.

Have you ever been so in love ....

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LIFE ... Madness .... Happines

2009-02-03T03:54:00.000-08:00

it's about how to be happy .. the only thing that we'll agree about .. is that we want to be happy, any thing u did is a try to reach the happines u dreamed with . whatever u are , or whatever the behaviour u r using to reach this happines .. it's The Main Target in the life.
but is life really happy??

- i was thinking who is the most happinest person in the world ? the baby kids.. maybe because they don't have any bad memorise , they don't care about the Future, they don't miss someone , they don't have to care for other's feeling .. also they don't get hurted .. they Keep laughing or crying and u can't stop them . they will stop when they want to stop .. they don't have to care for any ting else .. just if he's happy he'll laugh , if he want smth .. he'll cry.

what about other people ? can any one become a happy person ?
at first time i said yes.. the one who is Successful in work , or find his/her soul mate.. or have new baby . those people must be happy.... but it's a moment of happines . even if it take one week or one month .. it's a moment. maybe u'll have such a happines moment once in ur life time , or twice .... who knows.

even when i get such a moment which made me tooo happy, and i remember that in another side of the street there were a child who asking people for money , have no dreams .. he live a hopeless life . ok i'll ignore this one and i'll think in another thing , i find myself thing in that place in the world .. where people are killed every day. they Die. it's not a tv watch .. a person who was like us , have a jop ..life .. wife ..kids.. he died because of nothing . maybe Right now there r someone who crying every Night because he lost every thing in his life...

ok... stop thinking like that u act like the 60's hundered ladies.. i'll think in other thing , in that old lady who hase 70 years old and she lived alone , because her'childrens are too busy to care about her . someone may say , it's a black view .. u have to look to the white side of the life. which whit side u can saw? even if u have all wt u dreamed of.. if u r the happiest person, how could u stop thinking about every one who feel pain??

ok , we can't live like that .. we have to be happy and still have a happines moments so that we can go on.

the Amazing way to be happy is to act like a child... we face alot of days with hard work .. no thing new , or daily boring routine .. how to feel gr8 in such a normal days? Be CRAZY :D:D

Crazy mean to do smth unusual and don't care for others .. for example , that day i like to wear jeans with Orange Tichert..although i supposed to be in a classic look as long as i'm working but it's ok i like that ... change ur Hair cut style ... change ur room style .. listining for music with Loud Sound .. it's noisy but it's gr8 .. dance .. dance .. dance .......... the most important thing is to dance it's get all ur feeling out and it's the most effictive Exercise :D

for daily work , try to wakeup at 5:00 .. wait for sunrise ,, then Fager prayer, Listinig to Pure Voice like celin-dion or Fairouz. while taking breakfast . then start ur day with BIG BIG BIG smile.
so how can u smile in face of someone who get Fight wz u yesterday with smiling face?? if u act like a kid, u'll forget every day what happend yesterday.

maybe it's not easy to do such a thing but it depend about how old r u , and how many years u r willing to live? i'm almost 22 and half and i'm willing to live till 70 and if hate one person every year( which is an optimal case) , when i die i'll have around 50 perosn hate me...

maybe by this way u'll not be a successful person by Business means , but in Emotional life . u'll be a perfect one .
all people wish to get the best place in thir life , they miss alot for that place , i'm a smart one.. i'll lose only when it's deserve . i'm not going to lose someone or hurt someone because it'll be a chance to get better place, even if that one is deserve and even if it'll cost me alot .

Don't ever lose someone to get something. alot of people don't like the way i'm thinking with , starting by my close friends and my family.. but i really feel Peace with myself . i can be happy whatever i want , i can cry whenever i need , when i lie my face get red so every one can see that i'm ling and i like that , when i hate someone it will be soo clear, also when i love it'll be clear... thats all wt i need

This is the meaning of love...

2008-12-11T05:22:00.000-08:00

من اجمل قصائد نزار قبــــــــاني

قالت لهُ...

أتحبني وأنا ضريرة ...

وفي الدُّنيا بناتُ كثيرة

الحلوةُ و الجميلةُ ..

ما أنت إلا بمجنون ...

أو مشفقٌ على عمياء العيون ...

قالَ ... بل أنا عاشقٌ يا حلوتي ...

ولا أتمنى من دنيتي ...

إلا أن تصيري زوجتي

... وقد رزقني الله المال ...

وما أظنُّ الشفاء مٌحال ...

قالت ...

إن أعدتّ إليّ بصري ... سأرضى بكَ يا قدري ...

وسأقضي معك عمري ...

لكن .. من يعطيني عينيه ... وأيُّ ليلِ يبقى لديه ...

وفي يومٍ جاءها مُسرِعا ... أبشري قد وجدّتُ المُتبرِّعا ...

وستبصرين ما خلق اللهُ وأبدعا ...

وستوفين بوعدكِ لي ...

وتكونين زوجةً لي ...

ويوم فتحت أعيُنها ...

كان واقفاَ يمسُك يدها ...

رأتهُ ... فدوت صرختُها ...

أأنت أيضاً أعمى؟!!... وبكت حظها الشُؤمَ ...

لا تحزني يا حبيبتي ... ستكونين عيوني و دليلتي ...

فمتى تصيرين زوجتي ...

قالت ... أأنا أتزوّجُ ضريرا ...

وقد أصبحتُ اليومَ بصيرا ...

فبكى ...

وقال سامحيني ... من أنا لتتزوّجيني ...

ولكن ... قبل أن تترُكيني ...

أريدُ منكِ أن تعديني ...

أن تعتني جيداً بعيوني

TO LOVE every thing ..

To love the pain...

to love the one who is not your's...

Confused

2008-01-20T03:53:00.000-08:00

hi again,

kont nawya abtl writing maybe because i finally discoverd 2n mfesh 7aga tstahl el ktaba ,
msh 3rfa aw2at b7s 2n fe 7agat ktera gedan tst72 el t3b wl z3al , bs brdo fl 2a7'r bktshf 2nha mkntsh tst72 . law kol 7aga fl donia btb2a kwayesa fl 2wl bs , w kol el nas btb2a gmela 2awy awl ma y3rfo b3d , shwaya w kol 7aga btban .. el nas brdo btzh2 mn el tmsel . berg3o l tbe3thom . i feel 2n mfesh aman . law kol 7ad bn2blo msh 3rfen howa sad2 wala kdab w kol group besht3'l m3 b3d bekon kol hamhom ytl3o fo2 b3d. w kol 7ad be7awl ya7'od ele leh wle msh leh w b2a dah el tbe3e.

el nazra ele kolha shak b2t 7aga 3dya ben el nas , ele shklo beban typ yb2a howa ele bemsl , bs howa f3ln bemsl 3la nfso . el nas fhma 2n el 2nsan ele mn gowah tayp dah msh 2adr ykon shere
da3f y3ne , bs bl3ks el tayp stronger than el shrer , l2no bet7ml 7agat ktera 2awy 2awy 3lshan yfdl keda , bs el shrer l2a , be3aml el nas zay ma be3mloh . w shayf 2n howa dah el 3adl w 2n kol 2nsan he3esh mra w7da yb2a lazm ya7'od ele howa 3ezo.

w leh mn2losh 2n kol 2nsan f3ln he3esh mra w7da , el shar msh he7'lehom mrten , wl teba msh ht7'leha mara w7da . tayp wala shrer kolhom hetnso , bs ele t3ban m3ana 2lbna w dmerna

kol 7aga fena btt2klm , el nas 2t3wdt 3la el sot el 3aly , w 2t3wdt 2n el 3'lt howa el tbe3e , w 2t3wdo yshofo el zolm w yl2olo mobrerat . bs rbna 2da kol wa7ed 2lb 2t7'l2 b27sas mo3en
beshof kol 7aga 7wleh btt3'er w howa msh be3rf yt3'er f bet3b , w bebd2 yt3bna w y3atb kter
flma bnzh2 mno bnl3'eh msh l2nna msh moktn3en beh , bl3ks l2nna 3rfen 2no sa7 f msh 3ezen nsm3o .

law kol 7aga htt3'er w el typ hege yom yb2a shrer wl 7aga ele kant f yom akbr 7lm lena lma b2t m3ana b2t 7aga 3adya yb2a mfesh aman fl donia mfesh 7aga sabta 3lshan tb2a mkyas el aman
i really need to feel save>

29/10/2007

2007-10-15T12:56:00.000-07:00

waiting ......

One day the day u never want it will be the day that u are waiting for ..

Plz let me know ur answer.. !!

2007-06-04T20:57:00.000-07:00

here is many questions i like to know ur answers on it , not all of them are mine ... :

1- how many advantages ( good qualities) u have ? ( just count )
2

2- how many disadvan u have ? 3eobak ( just count )
6

3- if u have to rename urself , wt ur name will be ?
maha

4- what do u want to reborn as ? ( smth 3'er el human y3ne )

Abird

5-when u was a chiled , kont bt7lm tkon 2eh ? (if haven't any dream , skip thise )

doctort amrad nfsya :D :D :D

6- how many years u want to live ?
70

7- how many people u really hurt ( 2zethom f3ln ) in ur life ?
4

8- how many people hurt u & thire behaviour change u to be worst ?
made me upset alot , but hurt me 5 & just one make me change to worst

9- as u have n number of disadv , would u like to change it all or part of it ? in another word , do u really regrets thise things?
yes i hope to change it all

10- ur best color (s) at max 3 colors ?
pink - black

11- do u ever do somthing knowing it's a wrong ? or do u repeats the same mistakes ?
yes , alot

12-if u promise to not do smth , will you do it for any reasons ?
Unfortunately, yes - for some reasons-

13- would u die for someone ? (to really replace someone in death )? if yes how many ?

yes, just one

14- would u die after someone ? (not physically death but it's end of ur life ).
sure yes , just one

15- if u have to take decision in smth , & u have thise considerations
ur heart - ur brain - people - circumstances
sort them according to thire Priorities for u ..
my heart -circumstances - my brain-ppl

16- The most natural scenes Affects you ?
sunset & sunrise

17- The last thing u wish to see before u dead , or the last one ?
sunset at Winter

18- what is in the top of ur dream list ? (mention at least one) ..
to reach number 13 & 14

19- mention two things from ur believes ( 7agat mn el donia like mbad2 mslan )?
- one day life will be pure
- i'm a good person

20 - when u face a problem which make u feel lost , who is the first one u wish to see?
the one who is in 13 & 14 :D puzzle

21- what do u think in when u see thise words : (if it has special meaning for u )
Winter : love , hope , life , romantic
Autumn : come after winter , lost
Summer : the worst season
Spring : hope , winter come after spring
Night : the same feeling as winter , time i like to spend it
Light : shocks , waiting time
closed window : Ambiguity - make me a fraid - want to open it
a baby cried : how lucky he is :D
chiled who ask people for mony in metro msln: wt kind of dreams he has ?
smth broken : it was unbroken oneday
empty street : feel free

22 ) life is a ... (life like wt in ur eyes just one reason for ur answer is enough)

life is like a game , ppl like toys ... the fate is like the game Scenario ( smth already made ) ..
like a game ,
*to be the winner it dose not mean to be the best , but to have good experience ..
*when it's first time to play , u don't know the game is over 2la lma t7'ls
* u have many chances & if u lose one u never get it back
* when u leave the game it's the end of ur turn , not the end of the game..

23) if u have the following 3 doors each one give u a chance for smth , which door u will choose :

1- doorA : door let u see ur future and take u there directly
2- door B : door will take u to the past ( but u will not chnage ur fate , just bt3esh el mady tany )
3- door C : door will make u change only one thing in ur life ( y7'lek t3'er 7aga w7da f mshklk w tfdl f ur current life)

-- tell the reason for why u choose thise door :D it's important ..

i'll choose Door B ,
because if i know the future i will not like to live the Present and if i go there , nothing will change just my lifetime will be shorter... for door C , if i can't choose one thing & change it l2ny momken andm b3d keda 2ny m7'trstsh 7aga tany
for Door B : whatever the past was good or bad , it's better than the present & future.. or maybe because i like the old things , or because i already know wt will be there ..

24 ) if u put in a situation which u have to choose one person form the following ( ur father or mather , ur baby sister,person u don't know ,ur self , ur love )

a ) u have to choose on of them to die
b) u have to choose on of them to save

the answer is to mention the one who u will choose and ur reasons for that not only ur choise ...

i hate to answer thise question alot , bs shofto f mkan w 3gbny ...

well ,
A ) i'll choose my self :D
just because onething , for sure i can't do that for my father or mother , so we have three ,
i can't do that for my love which is the one who i'll die for .
soo we have baby & uknown person , if i choose one of them to die i'll spend all my life wz damer mt3zb 2ny kan el mfrod let the other one die :D soo the better choise is to choose myself

B ) i'll choose any one of them except myself , for the same reson ... if i choose myself i can't live wzout them , so i'll die and if i choose anyone of them to save , i'll die wz the other soo dmerey msh he3zbny :D da ah dah

25 ) r u from the kind of ppl who get optimistic or pessimistic from seeing something or someone ? if yes what is it ?

Unfortunately , yes ... it's birds , el karwan & el 3'orab ..

26 ) do u think that ppl missunderstand u alot ? if yes , give %
yes , 80 %

27) if i told u to sort the ppl u really know & admire in ur life , then give urself a place between them , wt will be ur order ?( 1'st , 2nd .... n )

2nd one

28 ) finally , by which % u were sincerity in ur answers ?

i think 90%

Endless Love Story I- Autumn In My Heart

2007-06-01T12:19:00.000-07:00

Winter sonata was Enless Love story II , soo fe Endless Love story which is Autumn in my heart :'( bgd afz3 mn winter sonata bkter it's really wt endless love mean , to truely love some one and never let him / her go for any reason & to wait for him all ur life even if u really don't believe that he will back then die after him , in winter sonata i did not feel it as i want to feel it , but in thise story i do & i think it's still soo far to find smth like that in our life .

even if they both die but they are soo lucky (sure if that exist in real life )

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Episode one :

1/5:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_6jbC59hnQ&mode=related&search=

2/5:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XlYqCzPl_vE&mode=related&search=

3/5:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fj4jf1Dp1-k&mode=related&search=

4/5:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spdMVu93Ltg&mode=related&search=

5/5:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_R_cpHwYwzk&mode=related&search=

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Episode Two :

1/6:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_YbGdEv0BRI&mode=related&search=

2/6:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDkCxRupkuY&mode=related&search=

3/6:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SjMFaO78wGc&mode=related&search=

4/6:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IF7lA6T4vu0&mode=related&search=

5/6:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0wLXyrgCL-c&mode=related&search=

6/6:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvUxQFDnEnQ&mode=related&search =

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Pure life ( Sunset & Sunrise)

2007-05-29T19:54:00.000-07:00

today is the last Exam in my life , for the first time 7'lst bdrey and i had alot of time to sleep at the exam night but i couldn't ...
i'm not here to talking about my feeling fot the last day in my collage , or the last day i could see all my Colleagues 2ogether ... i will talk about all of it in another post.

msh 3rfa why i talk about thise 2oday , Sunset and sunrise , nothing can change my life like thise scenes .
i don't know why ,at the moment of sunrise i feel that i have new life , pure one ,
i really feel happy ,optimistic , wonderfull .. i feel that every one can do whatever he want at thise moment . it's the same feeling when u buy smth new or when u are the first one to use smth , u saw it clean ,no defects ,
the same feeling i had , i feel as i am the first one who watch thise scenes & the first one who see the world 2oday .. there were no noise , no cars in the street , all windows were closed.. it's smth for me , if the life have no thing more except thise scene , it's enough to make it pure . i feel Safety because it's the only thing that i will never miss as long as i'm alive.
when i look for the sky , i feel that there are smth there for me , i don't know it or where it will be , just i feel it smth good or more than good. i don't know how we have such scenes or such a moment and we still hate, hurt, kill each other .
i really don't heat any one i just don't want to see the one who hurt me alot because i can't simle in face of him/her maybe it's bad but that's wt i am.
i don't know wt i want to do , but i feel that i don't want any thing in the life , i don't like cars , tv , mobiles, fashion or kind of technolgies , i'm not dreaming wz nice worke or great house or anything related to the life and i'm not intersted on all of it . i just want to have samll house at any area in the world where i can see thise two scense and i want to keep it in my mind till the next sunrise or sunset .
life is really pure , maybe ppl ( all of us ) are not . but life is not the ppl who live in it , ppl come & go and the life still as it is , have sunset & sunrise , sea , sky , birds , rever .... whatever happen all the day if u wake up and watch the sunrise u will feel as yesterday have no effet on 2oday .. still pure air , cloudless sky , a hope ..sometimes i feel that they have feeling , the day that i lose someone , or leave someone i love , i feel that the sunset is different .. it's soo sad..

and it's 7:15 am .. i have to goo
c u later

The Moment - winter sonata

2007-05-28T21:08:00.000-07:00

http://www.box.net/index.php?rm=box_v2_download_shared_file&file_id=f_65027825

Don't cry, my Love.
We still have a long way to go...
Don't move, let me hold you for a moment so that I can remember our fond embrace
Even without words, we know we will always belong to each other
And because I love you so much...
I am willing to let you go in order for you to find true happiness
Promise me, you will come back to me someday
Promise me, you will be happy ... even without me.
It hurts too much to see you tormented by our love for so long
Even without words, we know we will always belong to each other
And because I love you so much...
I am willing to let you go in order for you to find true happiness
Promise me, you will come back to me someday
Promise me, you will be happy ... even without me.
It hurts so much to see you tormented by our love for so long
I am sorry for being unable to protect you
I have to leave everything behind, so that you can
leave me... do that for me, please...
Just remember this moment and leave me, promise me
Don't cry, my Love.
We still have a long way to go...
Don't move, let me hold you for a moment so that I can remember our fond embrace
Even without words, we know we will always belong to each other
And because I love you so much...
I am willing to let you go in order for you to find true happiness
Promise me, you will come back to me someday
Promise me, you will be happy ... even without me.
It hurts too much to see you tormented by our love for so long
Even without words, we know we will always belong to each other
And because I love you so much...
I am willing to let you go in order for you to find true happiness
Promise me, you will come back to me someday
Promise me, you will be happy ... even without me.
It hurts so much to see you tormented by our love for so long
I am sorry for being unable to protect you
I have to leave everything behind, so that you can
leave me... do that for me, please...
Just remember this moment and leave me, promise me

Don't Forget Me - winter sonata

2007-05-28T20:50:00.000-07:00

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Don't forget the bits and pieces..

Even when I am not around … do not forget

No matter it is in the beginning or for now

My love is so close … yet so far

I'll wait for you..

No matter where you are … I'll wait for you

Till I look for you

Just like the beginning

Even though I am a little late

Forget me not, forget me not … till I locate your whereabouts

I'll wait for you

No matter where you are … I'll wait for you

Till I look for you

Just like the beginning

Even though I am a little late...

Forget me not, forget me not … till I locate your whereabouts

From The Beginning Till Now

2007-05-23T20:16:00.000-07:00

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Can't return to my side, it's impossible now..

I console myself that I should stop loving you now

If I can't meet you again,

I really hope to forget you, to forget the entire you in my heart.

Every time I want to smile, you let me cry..

You make my everything go wrong

Every time I think of you, all my defences gave way

Tried hard to forget you, but I just can't

If I can't meet you again,

I really hope to forget you, to forget the entire you in my heart

Every time I want to smile, you let me cry

You make my everything go wrong

Every time I think of you, all my defences give way

I tried hard to forget you, but I just can't forget

I never know it is so hard to love someone...

Every time I want to smile, you let me cry

You make my everything go wrong

Every time I think of you, all my defences gave way

Tried hard to forget you, but I just can't

My Memory- Winter Sonata

2007-05-23T16:25:00.000-07:00

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My Memory

I remember every second of it

Even for trivial things, if I close my eyes, I can still see them

You're far away

I couldn't tell you that I am still in love with you...

still waiting for you..

It is not even in my dream that I thought we could meet again like this

Therefore, I have to be frank with you: I am still in love with you

I wanna love you forever

If, it is not too late for our fate, I wish I could stay with you forever

For a long time, you have been alive in my heart

No matter how long we have parted, no matter how far you are, you are

always in my heart

It is not even in my dream that I thought we could meet again like this

Therefore, I have to be frank with you: I wanna love you forever

If, it is not too late for our fate, I wish I could stay with you forever...

...

2007-04-24T12:58:00.000-07:00

i don't know why i can't find any title for my posts but i can't classify this post under any category and it's nothing ... just smth i feel that i want to say it;

- The change :

it's the worst word in my life... i hate changes in everything, why all things changes wz time !!! why we have to change our mobiles when we have money to buy new one even if it still working ? and change the old furniture to have new one ... even if it have all our memories..
why we have to change every thing if we found smth much better!!! the old one was not bad and it always was the best one before we find out that there are smth better than ours?
why we have to change our best friends because we finally discovere that they were soo bad by comparison wz others..
and even our nature ., we all get changes by time for many resons .i know that the changing is not always bad thing but we can't trust because we know that every thing will be other thing and we don't know when and what it will be .
it's soo hard when you go to ur childhood house and find that no thing as it was , our when u back to ur friend after 5 years to find that no one was expect u or even remeber u , they will remember u as aperson they knew before .. but not as friend and u will feel it...
the best things you will ever see is the first in ur life soo
first love , first friend , first mobile ..... etc
i'm not going to say to not have any thing new that's not possible ... i just want to change the old things when we really have to . not because we just like to get the best things.

- life must continue ....

Whatever happened life will go on , it seem like good thing ... it's not bad but it also not good
when we lose someone , we know that life will never stops for that person or any one , so we go on wz the life as if nothing happened ...-i know that no one will accept my words but it's ok- when we lose someone for death or any other resons , all wt we want is to get out of our sadness , we try to forget and to out of this bad mood and we get the meaning of el 'sabr' 3'lt
it dose not mean to forget the people u lost after one day , month or year , it means to not kill ur self or lost after them .. el nsyan n3ma mn 3nd rbna and i know that bs ykon lel t7'fef mn el bad memories msh 3lshan nms7ha 7'als..
why when someone loses his wife , in most cases, he will marry after one or two years wl 3ks s7e7 .. m3 2no will not die if he did not married ..
wt i want to say is that people , who we lost in our life , Deserve more than wt we give them ..
at least we have to stop awhile and to get lost for small time for thir memories , and wt's wrong if i go on my life wz someone memories? why i have to forget it and get a new real one to take his/her place . i like smth fl '7edad' bt3 el dol el 2orobya ... ele howa 'l7zt samt' .. i don't know why i like it but when they all keep silent for a moment i feel as smth stoped for that person , smth changed -even if they don't make any thing more than l7zt el samt-

- people ...

why we always know that we did not understand someone and we keep say u r .... and ... and ...
when we think alitle u will find that the most people u hurts are the most people loving u
we can't hurt the perosn who hate us , because simply he have no feeling for us to get hurt.
why we want to effect others life , while we never enable them to change our life
we almost realize smth Importance when we lose it .
i was thinking wt if i can't think because all people can read my mind? wt if ur mind was not closed for u , think of it as if u must think loudly soo all people will know wt u think in . that mean that u can't have ur own secerts or even u can't imagine. how can we live wzout imagination ..
how even can we live when all people know wt we think in for all of them ??? it's not a bad thing but we not always saing wt we really want to say we say , wt we want others to know..
why we cried only at the time we wish never to cry on it
why u take alot of time can't understand someone .... and when u finally understand him/her , you have to lose him/her.

whatever happen ... we have to live and love

..

2007-04-21T18:37:00.000-07:00

**I Have Dream **

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream....... a fantasy
To help me through ....... reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness
Still another mile

I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see

-- I have a dream (WesTLife)

When you get lost ....

2007-01-30T14:05:00.001-08:00

sometime every one and anyone be in the state which u can't talk and you don't know what is going on . in that state you can't answer if some one ask you why are you sad ? because you really don't know the reason or maybe there are alot of reasons so you can't tell which one is responsiple for your sadness .

in such state you search for some one you trust more than ur self , or search for some one who have no relation whith you i mean he don't love you or hate you , an ideal person .
in first case you may find that person who u trust alot , but wt if he was the person who make you sad ??
in the second case you may find the ideal person , but if you a senstive person you will feel soo hard when you talk to some one who can't feel you .

soo you can let these option and search for a place where no one know you , no one talk to you or ask you any thing . some place which like(Shadow land ) i hear these term and i feel it alot , Shadow land , is the place where are people are like a shadow you see them but you don't have to interact with them .
in that case you may find your place , but it will be an imagine place . soo you can just dream with it or like a frind say it wil be soo far away .

soo all what you can do is to know when you get lost and try as much as you can to never reach thise area .

Winter Sonata

2007-01-25T07:53:00.000-08:00

Break ......

2007-01-12T20:09:00.000-08:00

في السعاده

خُذِ الحياةَ كما جاؤتك مبتسماً في كفِّها، الغارُ أو في كفِّها العِدِمُ
وارقُص على الوَردِ والأشواكِ مُتَّئِداً غنَّت لك الطيرُ، أو غنِّ لك الرُّجُمُ
واعمَلْ كما تأموُرُ الدنيا بلا مَضَضٍ والجِمْ شعوركَ فيها، إنَّها صَنَمُ
فَمَنْ تألَّم لم تُرْحَمْ مضاضتُه ُومَن تجلّدَ لم تَهْزأ بهِ القِمَمُ
هذي سعادةُ دُنيانا، فكُن رجُلاً إن شِئتَها – أَبَدَ الآبادِ – يبتسِمُ!
وإنْ أردتَ قضاءَ العيشِ في دعة ٍشِعْريَّةٍ لا يغَشِّى صَفْوها نَدَمُ
فاترُكْ إلى الناسِ دُنياهم وضجَّتهم ْوما بنَوْا لنظامِ العيشِ أو رَسَمُوا
واجعلْ حياتك دَوْحاً مُزْهِراً نِضِرا ًفي عُزلةِ الغابِ يَنْمو ثم يَنْعَدِمُ
واجعلْ لياليكَ أحلاماً مُغرِّدةً إن الحياةَ وما تَدْوي به حُلُمُ!
أبو القاسم الشابِّي-

// i like el feh el part bt3 seb el donia lel nas deh w a7'r bet 7lw moot /

إذا سمائـك يومـا ًتحجّبـت بالغـيـومْ أغمض جفونكَ تُبصرْخلف الغيـوم نجـوم

والأرضُ حولك إمّـاتوشّجـت بالثـلـوجْ أغمِض جفونك تُبصرْتحت الثلوث مـروج

وإن بليـتَ بــداء ٍوقيـل داءٌ عـيـاءْ أغمِض جفونك تُبصرْفي الدّاءِ كل الـدواء

وعندما الموتُ يدنـوواللحـدُ يًفغـر فـاهْ أغمِض جفونك تُبصرْفي اللحد مهدَ الحيـاه

//i like this one tooo much , w agml 7aga feh 2no be2ed el Imagination ..

نعيب زماننا والعيب فينا ومـــا لزمانــنا عيب سوانا ونهجو ذا الزمان بغير ذنب ولو نطق الزمان لنا.. هجانا

أيهذا الشاكي ومابك داء .......... كن جميل تر الوجود جميلا

أيليا ابو ماضي

// mesh dayman s7 bl3ks i think kol ma kan el 2nsan s7 kol ma shaf el donia 3'lt w t3b feha gedan .

ألســت وعدتنــي يـــا قلبُ أنّـي
إذا مـــا تُبتُ عن ليلى تتــــوبُ؟
فهـا أنا تـائبٌ عن حُــبِّ ليلــــى
فمـــا لك كلمـــا ذُكرت تــذوبُ

// msh 3rfa dah 2mre2o el kayes wala l2a bs law msh howa yb2a 2shm3na dayman layay:D:D

Break ......

2007-01-12T18:30:00.000-08:00

WelcomeBack...

w ana so3'era kant 3ndy hewaya 2ny agm3 el klmat aw abyat el sh3r ele 2t2alet f 7aga mo3ena howa ana kont b7s el modo3 dah mofed f 7gten el 2wla momken gedan tla2y gomal aw bet sh3er wsaf fe satr 7agat 27na msh 3rfen n2olha aw n3br 3nha . and i think 2n el nas el 2dema deh 3rfo m3na el 7aya wl 7ob wl s3aada afdl mnena bkteeeeeeeer .
soo in these post i will try to back l hwayete el 2dema w hb2a fl break agm3 shewayet 7agat w aked msh kolha 3gbtny f h2ol ele 3gbny feha . w law ay 7d 3ndo 7aga zay keda yaret ydefha

soo Start

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" الحياة منفى قصير " افلاطون
الحياة شعلة اما ان تحترق بنارها، واما ان نطفئها ونعيش في ظلام" لامارتين"
عندما لا نعرف ما الحياة كيف يمكننا ان نعرف ما هو الموت " كونتو سيوش."
الحياة بلا فائدة موت مسبق " غوته."
بورك من ملا حياته بعمل الخير لانه ادرك انها اقصر من ان يضيعها بعمل شئ " توفيق الحكيم."
الحياة قطار سريع ما اجتازه حلم و ما هو مقبل عليه وهم " سوبان."
الحياة حلم يوقظنا منه الموت " مثل فارسي."
عش رجبا ترى عجبا " مثل عربي."
الحكيم يستفيد من اعدائه اكثر مما يستفيد الجاهل من اصدقائه" مثل انجليزي."
الذي ينتصر على غيره فهو قوي والذي ينتصر على نفسه فهو اقوى" ارسطو."
الحكمة ثمرة شجرة التجربة" د. رضا دريب عواضة.
" ان العالم ما هو الا مسرح كبير وكل البشر رجالا ونساءا ماهم الا ممثلين" شكسبير
."لم يفت الوقت ابدا لتكون ما كان يمكن ان تكونه" جورج اليوت. "
من يمتلك الصحة يمتلك الامل ومن يمتلك الامل يمتلك كل شئ"
" كل منا طائر له جناح واحد يمكننا ان نطير فقط عندما يعاون احدنا الاخر" لو تشيانودي."
ابتسم للحياة لكي تعيش طويلا " سكوتش بروفيرب."
الحياة تمضي سريعا فلا تتوقف كي تلتفت حولك لئلا تضيع وقتك" فريس بو هلد."
يظل الانسان عبدا لمطالب الحياة حتى يحرره الموت" يوسف السباعي ."
" الدنيا كالماء المالح كلما ازددت منه شربا ازددت عطشا"."
الدنيا منازل، فراحل ونازل" عبدالحميد الكاتب .

and here wt i like

من عيب الدنيا انها لا تعطي احد ما يستحق لكنها اما ان تزيد واما ان تنقص".

كلماتنا في الحب تقتل حبنا ..أن الحروف تموت حين تقال .. "نزار قباني

لا تشكو للناس جرحا انت صاحبه لا يؤلم الجرح الا من به الم

"لا تندم على حب عشته...حتى ولو صارت ذكرى تؤلمك فإذا كانت الزهور قد جفت وضاع عبيرها.. ولم يبقى منها غير الأشواك..فلا تنسى أنها منحتك عطراً جميلاً أسعدك

ليس للحياة قيمة الا اذا وجدنا شيئا نناضل من اجله" سوفاج
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خير لنا ان نحب فنخفق من ان لا نحب ابدا

من السهل ان بنسى الانسان نفسه لكن من الصعب ان ينسى نفس سكنت نفسه

للآمام الشافعي دع الأيام تفعل ما تشاء وطب نفساً اذا حكم القضاء

What people do and what they need

2006-12-29T11:15:00.000-08:00

they lose their health to make money....
they live as if they will never die, and die as though we had never lived

And they need..
to learn that they can not make anyone love them, All they can do is let themselves be loved
to lean that it's not good to compare themselves to others
To learn how to forgive by practicing forgiveness
To learn that it only take few seconds to love someoneu , and it can take many years to forget them
To know that the rich person is not the one who has the most but is the one who needs the least
To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently
To learn that it is not enough that they forgive one another but they must also forgive themselves
To learn that there are people who love them dearly , but simply have not yet learned how to express their feelings

And to finally belive that allah is Alwayes there