Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Endless love...





i had a lot of discussions last week, which mad me confused and other's too. one of them was about love , life and other issues... but the most important one was about what is love in my eyes.

i think that true love has only one meaning . maybe if u asked different ppl they would answer wz different explanation . but if they all read a sentence which explain what is love, they’ll all agree. it's very easy to know the true love when u see it .but i became too too rare to met this kind of love . 5 years ago i knew a lot of persons who have the same concept about love ,they keep saying, they'll wait forever to meet the true love… and so on. But they all give up, one of them really meet this one who was different but he wasn’t to good in financial means , another one found wt she dreamed wz but she got better chance . third person recognized that it's too hard to hold one wz ur heart , u have to think alot wz ur brain. and soo on.

when we was too young we all had dreams , concepts and believes . we keep thinking that it's the most important thing in our life . But once u forced to have a decision , u have to lose smth and keep the other one . if u'r going to keep ur dreams and believe maybe u'll lose smth very critical in ur life.
u'r gonna to think is it really worth? in most cases the answer will be No. an inner voice would tell u , keep ur believes inside ur heart , u have to take this position , u have to marry the best offer u got , u have to… so and so.

i think u all now got what i'm talking about. it's every day's routine . daily we lose something we really believe wz. one of these believes is Love.

it's not a movi show , or romantic songs . the most special feeling in ur heart. i believe that every person had another one waiting for him/her . only one person. when u saw him ur heart will keep beating faster , it's not the same as first look love.
u'll feel it inside ur heart . whatever dream list u have , this one will be the top on ur dream list , u can lose every thing for him because u truly know that he is the most thing u'd ever want . you'll keep running , improving ur self , go on in ur work , get a great position , plane ur life , keep working to achieve wt u want and u think u'd never give ur dreams up But when u meet him u found suddenly that all ur dreams became just one person.
u have a lot of problems but every thing is ok as long as he's by ur side. when someone ask u about ur dream knight u'll keep saying alot of characistc ,( nice work - nice home -no smoking.... and so on but u'll meet this one who have no thing u dreamed wz , maybe he has alot of problems in his life, a lot of things r missing … and every one keep asking u , why this one u used to had a better chances , he has no.. . but u can't answer , u really don't know wt he had to be the only thing u want in ur life , u can give anything up , lose anything just for him.
wt i'm talking about is not a mistake, nor 13's years old love , it's not a movie’s love .
it's very very special feeling . smth done by ur heart , u can't think in it . did u imagine when u wakeup each day and smile just because he is yours.


whatever u have all the day smth inside will told u ,it's ok u'll see him at the end of this day so everything will be ok. When u feel true love for someone , w would want him to be happy whatever with or without you . maybe he’ll got better life without u so u have to let him go but u can’t forget or go on with ur life . whatever he is yours or not he’ll be in ur heart and u’ll live with that love as if every thing is ok . what others may see as painful life , u’ll see it as u got all wt u want .someone inside ur heart . which is true meaning of love called ( Endless love)

i'm not talking about dream life , and i really know wt kind of problems is in life , i knew that not all problems can be ignored .and I’m not talking about ppl who get married because the meet the suitable one for them , nor those lover who discover after couples of years that they were mistaken . also I’m not talking about ordinary life. It’s the only way to get pure life inside ur self . I’m not crazy and i also know that nobody would understand this words except who already know wt i'm talking about.

when u love someone with this way , u'll truly know he’s advantages and disadvantages . u'll not saw him as great one then get Shock. u really know that he have 1 , 2 , 3 and he miss 1 , 2 , 3,4 ,5 . the funnist thing is that u found ur self love both his advs and disadvs. it's about to believe in him, believe mean that he is the cause of ur life ,u may have alot of problems wz him whatever it is but when u try to think against him , or being upset from him , u'll find urself thinking inside his heart as a part of him . any part of ur body my hurt u sometimes but u'll never be separated and if that happened nothing can substitute it.

If u got this , it’s a heaven-sent . I feel like crazy when someone asked me how u’ll know that he is the one u r looking for . cuz I have very strange answer , mainly I expect that he ‘ll havea lot of problems , difficulties which made every thing seems to be impossible . so if someone looks fine in every thing I became sure that he is not the one whom I looking for . to avoid misunderstanding , I’m not looking for dramatically story
but simply if u have to pay 10 bound to get silver ring , u have to pay 10*1000000 to get a diamond one. This is the rule .

if i hear that someone die for another person , i'll not be surprised . would u replace someone in death or lost ur life for him !!. yes we can lose alot of things , jop , family but to lose ur life it's not the same. i know why someone may die for the one he love or for the thing he believe in. if u have this one in ur life , so u still alive but wt if he died? death is fate- but if u lose this one , every thing should not be ok, u can't go on in ur life and say we'll all die. life had to stop for his sake u'll just keep life because u have to ,but u can't think in any other relation so it's as u r waiting to follow him in death.
yes that what i mean , u have great life with this person so why not to live in pain after him. if u know how ur life would be after him , u would replace him in death. because actually u have no life after he gone.

it's really very hard concept. maybe someone would say , alot of happy married ppl can live wz thier life and kids although they were'nt lover.why to suffer , u can have ordinary life wz alot of other things , jop , kids , family. why to lose alot and to did all that .
how lucky is the person who really see that it dosen't deserve . yes the one who can't think like me is too too lucky more than he can imagine .if you can accept the normal life ,normal love and normal death, you r lucky.

one day i thought that i'll lose this concept wt the time , as long as i'm getting bigger , meeting more ppl , have alot of fine chances ..i'll change this concept , or maybe i'll accept to decide by my mind . but nothing changed , i found myself refused alot of good chances or even refuse if someone loved u . cause i can't persuade myself to love this one who r great in alot of things . it had to come suddenly wzout thinking . my heart should beat alot when i saw him. u can meet alot of wonderful persons, they really have no problem , maybe they'll be great in normal relationship but nobody can work wz my concept. sometimes i'm telling myself try to change ur mind he is a good person but it doesn’t work.

long time a go , i knew a person . he was believe in Guevara , he hate persons who did every thing by ( wasta) and money . he had alot of problems in his life , can't enter the collage alot of times because of such a problem . nobody can imagine wt happend wz him and wt hard time he got . he never give up , finally he got a chance to get the collage he dreamed with, but it was because someone he know . so it's wasta . the reaction was , he refused it . it's the simplest situation he got and the smallest thing he lose. he was like a movi hero and u can mention that by wt he did not wt he say. but he give up at the end . there is alot of ppl who would never think that they may did such a thing.

it's a life , u'll live for once , every thing will be ok at the end , every thing will be the same wz all as we'll all die. but wt make difference is how do u want to spend your life time .

Monday, February 23, 2009

another lesson

-for someone like me , each day i get a new lesson. bad one. that kind of lessons who mad u older , smarter and more experienced.
experience is a magic word in every thing , except in life . if you have expriance in the life that mean u hurt alot , u face alot , and u did alot of things .that's way u become an experienced one.
as life is a game, so the exprianced game player is the one who play more, not the smart one nor the kindest one. to win means that u became the one who know every thing , i don't like those ppl .
they act like if they were in endless war. they keep thinking bad things about u , or maybe they keep saying bad things about u , but they'll never face u .
Why? just because it's how the game is played .
if u said wt r u thinking in , u can't be the winner. u have to play hide and seek . u have to be smarter . u have to be shifty . at the end u'll be the winner .
how much it costs?
No thing to say, just i wish be the Biggest Loser .
2oday's lesson is : be like sea waves , don't be like smooth land

Sunday, February 22, 2009

greaaaaaaaaaaaaaat song ... wake up

There's people talking
They talk about me
They know my name
They think they know everything
But they don't know anything
About me
Give me a dance floor
Give me a dj
Play me a record
Forget what they say
Cause I need to go
Need to getaway tonight
I put my makeup on a Saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok
Wake Up
Wake Up
On a Saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight
The city's restless
It's all around me
People in motion
Sick of all the same routines
And they need to go
They need to get away
Tonight
I put my makeup on a Saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok
People all around you
Everywhere that you go
People all around you
They don't really know you
Everybody watching like it's some kind of show
Everybody's watching
They don't really know you now
(They don't really know you)
(They don't really know you)
And forever
Wake Up
Wake Up
(Wake Up Wake Up)
Wake Up Wake Up
(Wake Up Wake Up)

someone watching over me

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid....To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Have you Ever Been In Love...Celine-Dion

Have you ever been in love....You could touch the moonlight

When your hearts shooting stars .....Youre holding heaven in your arms

Have you ever been so in love

Have you ever walked on air

Ever felt like you were dreamin

When you never thought it could......But it really feels that good

Have you ever been so in love

Have you ever been in love....You could touch the moonlight
When your hearts shooting stars

Youre holding heaven in your arms

Have you ever been in love, have you...

The time I spentWaiting for something that was heaven-sent
When you find it dont let go,I know

Have you ever said a prayer

And found that it was answered

All my hope has been restored

And I am not looking anymore

Have you ever been so in love, have you...




Some place that you are'nt leavin

Somewhere youre gonna stay.....When you finally found the meanin......Have you ever felt this way
The time I spentWaiting for something that was heaven-sent

When you find it, dont let go,I know...



Coz have you ever been so in love, so in love...

You could touch the moonlight

You can even reach the stars.....Doesnt matter near or far.

Have you ever been so in love ....


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Tuesday, February 03, 2009

LIFE ... Madness .... Happines

it's about how to be happy .. the only thing that we'll agree about .. is that we want to be happy, any thing u did is a try to reach the happines u dreamed with . whatever u are , or whatever the behaviour u r using to reach this happines .. it's The Main Target in the life.
but is life really happy??

- i was thinking who is the most happinest person in the world ? the baby kids.. maybe because they don't have any bad memorise , they don't care about the Future, they don't miss someone , they don't have to care for other's feeling .. also they don't get hurted .. they Keep laughing or crying and u can't stop them . they will stop when they want to stop .. they don't have to care for any ting else .. just if he's happy he'll laugh , if he want smth .. he'll cry.

what about other people ? can any one become a happy person ?

at first time i said yes.. the one who is Successful in work , or find his/her soul mate.. or have new baby . those people must be happy.... but it's a moment of happines . even if it take one week or one month .. it's a moment. maybe u'll have such a happines moment once in ur life time , or twice .... who knows.

even when i get such a moment which made me tooo happy, and i remember that in another side of the street there were a child who asking people for money , have no dreams .. he live a hopeless life . ok i'll ignore this one and i'll think in another thing , i find myself thing in that place in the world .. where people are killed every day. they Die. it's not a tv watch .. a person who was like us , have a jop ..life .. wife ..kids.. he died because of nothing . maybe Right now there r someone who crying every Night because he lost every thing in his life...

ok... stop thinking like that u act like the 60's hundered ladies.. i'll think in other thing , in that old lady who hase 70 years old and she lived alone , because her'childrens are too busy to care about her . someone may say , it's a black view .. u have to look to the white side of the life. which whit side u can saw? even if u have all wt u dreamed of.. if u r the happiest person, how could u stop thinking about every one who feel pain??


ok , we can't live like that .. we have to be happy and still have a happines moments so that we can go on.

the Amazing way to be happy is to act like a child... we face alot of days with hard work .. no thing new , or daily boring routine .. how to feel gr8 in such a normal days? Be CRAZY :D:D

Crazy mean to do smth unusual and don't care for others .. for example , that day i like to wear jeans with Orange Tichert..although i supposed to be in a classic look as long as i'm working but it's ok i like that ... change ur Hair cut style ... change ur room style .. listining for music with Loud Sound .. it's noisy but it's gr8 .. dance .. dance .. dance .......... the most important thing is to dance it's get all ur feeling out and it's the most effictive Exercise :D


for daily work , try to wakeup at 5:00 .. wait for sunrise ,, then Fager prayer, Listinig to Pure Voice like celin-dion or Fairouz. while taking breakfast . then start ur day with BIG BIG BIG smile.
so how can u smile in face of someone who get Fight wz u yesterday with smiling face?? if u act like a kid, u'll forget every day what happend yesterday.


maybe it's not easy to do such a thing but it depend about how old r u , and how many years u r willing to live? i'm almost 22 and half and i'm willing to live till 70 and if hate one person every year( which is an optimal case) , when i die i'll have around 50 perosn hate me...

maybe by this way u'll not be a successful person by Business means , but in Emotional life . u'll be a perfect one .

all people wish to get the best place in thir life , they miss alot for that place , i'm a smart one.. i'll lose only when it's deserve . i'm not going to lose someone or hurt someone because it'll be a chance to get better place, even if that one is deserve and even if it'll cost me alot .

Don't ever lose someone to get something. alot of people don't like the way i'm thinking with , starting by my close friends and my family.. but i really feel Peace with myself . i can be happy whatever i want , i can cry whenever i need , when i lie my face get red so every one can see that i'm ling and i like that , when i hate someone it will be soo clear, also when i love it'll be clear... thats all wt i need

Thursday, December 11, 2008

This is the meaning of love...




من اجمل قصائد نزار قبــــــــاني

قالت لهُ...

أتحبني وأنا ضريرة ...

وفي الدُّنيا بناتُ كثيرة

الحلوةُ و الجميلةُ ..

ما أنت إلا بمجنون ...

أو مشفقٌ على عمياء العيون ...

قالَ ... بل أنا عاشقٌ يا حلوتي ...

ولا أتمنى من دنيتي ...

إلا أن تصيري زوجتي

... وقد رزقني الله المال ...

وما أظنُّ الشفاء مٌحال ...

قالت ...

إن أعدتّ إليّ بصري ... سأرضى بكَ يا قدري ...

وسأقضي معك عمري ...

لكن .. من يعطيني عينيه ... وأيُّ ليلِ يبقى لديه ...

وفي يومٍ جاءها مُسرِعا ... أبشري قد وجدّتُ المُتبرِّعا ...

وستبصرين ما خلق اللهُ وأبدعا ...

وستوفين بوعدكِ لي ...

وتكونين زوجةً لي ...

ويوم فتحت أعيُنها ...

كان واقفاَ يمسُك يدها ...

رأتهُ ... فدوت صرختُها ...

أأنت أيضاً أعمى؟!!... وبكت حظها الشُؤمَ ...

لا تحزني يا حبيبتي ... ستكونين عيوني و دليلتي ...

فمتى تصيرين زوجتي ...

قالت ... أأنا أتزوّجُ ضريرا ...

وقد أصبحتُ اليومَ بصيرا ...

فبكى ...

وقال سامحيني ... من أنا لتتزوّجيني ...

ولكن ... قبل أن تترُكيني ...

أريدُ منكِ أن تعديني ...

أن تعتني جيداً بعيوني


TO LOVE every thing ..

To love the pain...

to love the one who is not your's...

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Confused

hi again,

kont nawya abtl writing maybe because i finally discoverd 2n mfesh 7aga tstahl el ktaba ,
msh 3rfa aw2at b7s 2n fe 7agat ktera gedan tst72 el t3b wl z3al , bs brdo fl 2a7'r bktshf 2nha mkntsh tst72 . law kol 7aga fl donia btb2a kwayesa fl 2wl bs , w kol el nas btb2a gmela 2awy awl ma y3rfo b3d , shwaya w kol 7aga btban .. el nas brdo btzh2 mn el tmsel . berg3o l tbe3thom . i feel 2n mfesh aman . law kol 7ad bn2blo msh 3rfen howa sad2 wala kdab w kol group besht3'l m3 b3d bekon kol hamhom ytl3o fo2 b3d. w kol 7ad be7awl ya7'od ele leh wle msh leh w b2a dah el tbe3e.

el nazra ele kolha shak b2t 7aga 3dya ben el nas , ele shklo beban typ yb2a howa ele bemsl , bs howa f3ln bemsl 3la nfso . el nas fhma 2n el 2nsan ele mn gowah tayp dah msh 2adr ykon shere
da3f y3ne , bs bl3ks el tayp stronger than el shrer , l2no bet7ml 7agat ktera 2awy 2awy 3lshan yfdl keda , bs el shrer l2a , be3aml el nas zay ma be3mloh . w shayf 2n howa dah el 3adl w 2n kol 2nsan he3esh mra w7da yb2a lazm ya7'od ele howa 3ezo.

w leh mn2losh 2n kol 2nsan f3ln he3esh mra w7da , el shar msh he7'lehom mrten , wl teba msh ht7'leha mara w7da . tayp wala shrer kolhom hetnso , bs ele t3ban m3ana 2lbna w dmerna

kol 7aga fena btt2klm , el nas 2t3wdt 3la el sot el 3aly , w 2t3wdt 2n el 3'lt howa el tbe3e , w 2t3wdo yshofo el zolm w yl2olo mobrerat . bs rbna 2da kol wa7ed 2lb 2t7'l2 b27sas mo3en
beshof kol 7aga 7wleh btt3'er w howa msh be3rf yt3'er f bet3b , w bebd2 yt3bna w y3atb kter
flma bnzh2 mno bnl3'eh msh l2nna msh moktn3en beh , bl3ks l2nna 3rfen 2no sa7 f msh 3ezen nsm3o .

law kol 7aga htt3'er w el typ hege yom yb2a shrer wl 7aga ele kant f yom akbr 7lm lena lma b2t m3ana b2t 7aga 3adya yb2a mfesh aman fl donia mfesh 7aga sabta 3lshan tb2a mkyas el aman
i really need to feel save>