Confused

hi again,

kont nawya abtl writing maybe because i finally discoverd 2n mfesh 7aga tstahl el ktaba ,
msh 3rfa aw2at b7s 2n fe 7agat ktera gedan tst72 el t3b wl z3al , bs brdo fl 2a7'r bktshf 2nha mkntsh tst72 . law kol 7aga fl donia btb2a kwayesa fl 2wl bs , w kol el nas btb2a gmela 2awy awl ma y3rfo b3d , shwaya w kol 7aga btban .. el nas brdo btzh2 mn el tmsel . berg3o l tbe3thom . i feel 2n mfesh aman . law kol 7ad bn2blo msh 3rfen howa sad2 wala kdab w kol group besht3'l m3 b3d bekon kol hamhom ytl3o fo2 b3d. w kol 7ad be7awl ya7'od ele leh wle msh leh w b2a dah el tbe3e.

el nazra ele kolha shak b2t 7aga 3dya ben el nas , ele shklo beban typ yb2a howa ele bemsl , bs howa f3ln bemsl 3la nfso . el nas fhma 2n el 2nsan ele mn gowah tayp dah msh 2adr ykon shere
da3f y3ne , bs bl3ks el tayp stronger than el shrer , l2no bet7ml 7agat ktera 2awy 2awy 3lshan yfdl keda , bs el shrer l2a , be3aml el nas zay ma be3mloh . w shayf 2n howa dah el 3adl w 2n kol 2nsan he3esh mra w7da yb2a lazm ya7'od ele howa 3ezo.

w leh mn2losh 2n kol 2nsan f3ln he3esh mra w7da , el shar msh he7'lehom mrten , wl teba msh ht7'leha mara w7da . tayp wala shrer kolhom hetnso , bs ele t3ban m3ana 2lbna w dmerna

kol 7aga fena btt2klm , el nas 2t3wdt 3la el sot el 3aly , w 2t3wdt 2n el 3'lt howa el tbe3e , w 2t3wdo yshofo el zolm w yl2olo mobrerat . bs rbna 2da kol wa7ed 2lb 2t7'l2 b27sas mo3en
beshof kol 7aga 7wleh btt3'er w howa msh be3rf yt3'er f bet3b , w bebd2 yt3bna w y3atb kter
flma bnzh2 mno bnl3'eh msh l2nna msh moktn3en beh , bl3ks l2nna 3rfen 2no sa7 f msh 3ezen nsm3o .

law kol 7aga htt3'er w el typ hege yom yb2a shrer wl 7aga ele kant f yom akbr 7lm lena lma b2t m3ana b2t 7aga 3adya yb2a mfesh aman fl donia mfesh 7aga sabta 3lshan tb2a mkyas el aman
i really need to feel save>