Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Endless love...





i had a lot of discussions last week, which mad me confused and other's too. one of them was about love , life and other issues... but the most important one was about what is love in my eyes.

i think that true love has only one meaning . maybe if u asked different ppl they would answer wz different explanation . but if they all read a sentence which explain what is love, they’ll all agree. it's very easy to know the true love when u see it .but i became too too rare to met this kind of love . 5 years ago i knew a lot of persons who have the same concept about love ,they keep saying, they'll wait forever to meet the true love… and so on. But they all give up, one of them really meet this one who was different but he wasn’t to good in financial means , another one found wt she dreamed wz but she got better chance . third person recognized that it's too hard to hold one wz ur heart , u have to think alot wz ur brain. and soo on.

when we was too young we all had dreams , concepts and believes . we keep thinking that it's the most important thing in our life . But once u forced to have a decision , u have to lose smth and keep the other one . if u'r going to keep ur dreams and believe maybe u'll lose smth very critical in ur life.
u'r gonna to think is it really worth? in most cases the answer will be No. an inner voice would tell u , keep ur believes inside ur heart , u have to take this position , u have to marry the best offer u got , u have to… so and so.

i think u all now got what i'm talking about. it's every day's routine . daily we lose something we really believe wz. one of these believes is Love.

it's not a movi show , or romantic songs . the most special feeling in ur heart. i believe that every person had another one waiting for him/her . only one person. when u saw him ur heart will keep beating faster , it's not the same as first look love.
u'll feel it inside ur heart . whatever dream list u have , this one will be the top on ur dream list , u can lose every thing for him because u truly know that he is the most thing u'd ever want . you'll keep running , improving ur self , go on in ur work , get a great position , plane ur life , keep working to achieve wt u want and u think u'd never give ur dreams up But when u meet him u found suddenly that all ur dreams became just one person.
u have a lot of problems but every thing is ok as long as he's by ur side. when someone ask u about ur dream knight u'll keep saying alot of characistc ,( nice work - nice home -no smoking.... and so on but u'll meet this one who have no thing u dreamed wz , maybe he has alot of problems in his life, a lot of things r missing … and every one keep asking u , why this one u used to had a better chances , he has no.. . but u can't answer , u really don't know wt he had to be the only thing u want in ur life , u can give anything up , lose anything just for him.
wt i'm talking about is not a mistake, nor 13's years old love , it's not a movie’s love .
it's very very special feeling . smth done by ur heart , u can't think in it . did u imagine when u wakeup each day and smile just because he is yours.


whatever u have all the day smth inside will told u ,it's ok u'll see him at the end of this day so everything will be ok. When u feel true love for someone , w would want him to be happy whatever with or without you . maybe he’ll got better life without u so u have to let him go but u can’t forget or go on with ur life . whatever he is yours or not he’ll be in ur heart and u’ll live with that love as if every thing is ok . what others may see as painful life , u’ll see it as u got all wt u want .someone inside ur heart . which is true meaning of love called ( Endless love)

i'm not talking about dream life , and i really know wt kind of problems is in life , i knew that not all problems can be ignored .and I’m not talking about ppl who get married because the meet the suitable one for them , nor those lover who discover after couples of years that they were mistaken . also I’m not talking about ordinary life. It’s the only way to get pure life inside ur self . I’m not crazy and i also know that nobody would understand this words except who already know wt i'm talking about.

when u love someone with this way , u'll truly know he’s advantages and disadvantages . u'll not saw him as great one then get Shock. u really know that he have 1 , 2 , 3 and he miss 1 , 2 , 3,4 ,5 . the funnist thing is that u found ur self love both his advs and disadvs. it's about to believe in him, believe mean that he is the cause of ur life ,u may have alot of problems wz him whatever it is but when u try to think against him , or being upset from him , u'll find urself thinking inside his heart as a part of him . any part of ur body my hurt u sometimes but u'll never be separated and if that happened nothing can substitute it.

If u got this , it’s a heaven-sent . I feel like crazy when someone asked me how u’ll know that he is the one u r looking for . cuz I have very strange answer , mainly I expect that he ‘ll havea lot of problems , difficulties which made every thing seems to be impossible . so if someone looks fine in every thing I became sure that he is not the one whom I looking for . to avoid misunderstanding , I’m not looking for dramatically story
but simply if u have to pay 10 bound to get silver ring , u have to pay 10*1000000 to get a diamond one. This is the rule .

if i hear that someone die for another person , i'll not be surprised . would u replace someone in death or lost ur life for him !!. yes we can lose alot of things , jop , family but to lose ur life it's not the same. i know why someone may die for the one he love or for the thing he believe in. if u have this one in ur life , so u still alive but wt if he died? death is fate- but if u lose this one , every thing should not be ok, u can't go on in ur life and say we'll all die. life had to stop for his sake u'll just keep life because u have to ,but u can't think in any other relation so it's as u r waiting to follow him in death.
yes that what i mean , u have great life with this person so why not to live in pain after him. if u know how ur life would be after him , u would replace him in death. because actually u have no life after he gone.

it's really very hard concept. maybe someone would say , alot of happy married ppl can live wz thier life and kids although they were'nt lover.why to suffer , u can have ordinary life wz alot of other things , jop , kids , family. why to lose alot and to did all that .
how lucky is the person who really see that it dosen't deserve . yes the one who can't think like me is too too lucky more than he can imagine .if you can accept the normal life ,normal love and normal death, you r lucky.

one day i thought that i'll lose this concept wt the time , as long as i'm getting bigger , meeting more ppl , have alot of fine chances ..i'll change this concept , or maybe i'll accept to decide by my mind . but nothing changed , i found myself refused alot of good chances or even refuse if someone loved u . cause i can't persuade myself to love this one who r great in alot of things . it had to come suddenly wzout thinking . my heart should beat alot when i saw him. u can meet alot of wonderful persons, they really have no problem , maybe they'll be great in normal relationship but nobody can work wz my concept. sometimes i'm telling myself try to change ur mind he is a good person but it doesn’t work.

long time a go , i knew a person . he was believe in Guevara , he hate persons who did every thing by ( wasta) and money . he had alot of problems in his life , can't enter the collage alot of times because of such a problem . nobody can imagine wt happend wz him and wt hard time he got . he never give up , finally he got a chance to get the collage he dreamed with, but it was because someone he know . so it's wasta . the reaction was , he refused it . it's the simplest situation he got and the smallest thing he lose. he was like a movi hero and u can mention that by wt he did not wt he say. but he give up at the end . there is alot of ppl who would never think that they may did such a thing.

it's a life , u'll live for once , every thing will be ok at the end , every thing will be the same wz all as we'll all die. but wt make difference is how do u want to spend your life time .